Soares' mother, who is never named in his writings, dies when Soares is merely a one-year-old infant. Therefore, he never knows much about his mother. However, Soares claims that his callous nature and dislike of emotional closeness stems from this lack of motherly affection. He claims that the people who replaced his mother and took care of him could hold him close to their bodies, but not to their hearts. Soares often expresses in his writing a veiled desire to have known his mother better. One of these references comes at the end of Section 262 where Soares is bemoaning his lack of affection for others. At the conclusion of this section, he expresses a desire to have known his mother.