How does the author feel about her childhood home on Essex as noted in the memoir, Wild Game: My Mother, Her Lover, and Me?

After Malabar marries Charles, Adrienne and her family move into 100 Essex, an extravagant mansion in Boston. Though Charles is kind and generous, Adrienne never feels at home in 100 Essex. She believes the sheer scale and lavishness of the house creates divides between her family, keeping them even from hearing one another's movements through the space. Eventually Charles and Malabar sell the home and move into a smaller apartment.