When Edwin asks Cole about the totem, he notes that it looks like Cole was trying to carve a canoe... what does Cole tell him? Chapter 21

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Cole said,“I started making a canoe, but I knew that was wrong, so I cut this deep groove so I couldn’t try again. When I started carving the eagle, I finally slept good.” Cole ended by telling about his eagle dance and what he had learned. “Are you mad at me?” he asked.