How does Shaila feel about Judith's attempts to help her through the grieving process in the novel, The Management of Grief?

Shaila scorns Judith's textbook methods of "managing" grief but agrees to play the cultural liaison out of politeness. Shaila wishes she could "scream, starve, walk into Lake Ontario, [or] jump from a bridge." She considers herself a "freak," helplessly overtaken by a "terrible calm."