How did Fujiwara's affair with his first wife affect MM in The Kagero Diary: A Woman’s Autobiographical Text from Tenth-century?

MM found herself alternately depressed and anxious for long stretches of time. The few times she saw her husband, his anger and bad temper would frighten her, though his departure was always hurtful. Even though he was a neglectful husband, MM grew depressed over seeing him pass right by their home and became unable to sleep without him.