Where does Rosa sometimes wish she could seek comfort in Book 3, and why does she know it is impossible?

Antonia has adopted Paolo's dream for the future. He wants a different world than he was brought up in. For him, that is the Family. Antonia had always thought she needed to escape the Family in order to move forward. Paolo has a plan, and he is saving his wages for an apartment and furnishings. They will be married in the spring, and Paolo sees a future of clean rooms, well-behaved children, and warmth and security. Antonia has made this dream her own.