In Chapter Eight, the fourth installment of the “Shawn” poem includes his father asking why this had to happen to his family. There is no reply.
Shawn tells the reader his father left when he was almost four. He remembers the last time his dad fed him, which happened to be the same week he left. In the memory, Sydney spoons sloppy vegetables into Shawn’s mouth, Shawn coughs, and spits them all over his dad’s face. In a fit of rage, Sydney throws the spoon across the room and exclaims while he is not mad at Shawn, he is mad at the disability.
Shawn also recalls a later instance when he overhears his mother talking to a friend about his father leaving. Lindy, Shawn’s mom, states the piece that bothers Sydney the most is not knowing if Shawn is aware or not. She explains the doctors have said it would be nearly impossible for Shawn to have any awareness, but there is still a chance. It is that chance of awareness that drove Shawn’s father away. His mother explains to her friend his dad left because he couldn’t stand to see Shawn suffer through his seizures, knowing his mind might be trapped inside his body.
Shawn closes this chapter by telling the reader that both he and his father have double-jointed thumbs that can bend at almost any angle to look broken. Sometimes Shawn’s dad will bend both of their thumbs back, which makes him feel much loved by his father. This causes Shawn to say he almost trusts his dad to know what is best and what is the right thing to do.