What was it like for Knapp after she got out of rehab?

One of Knapp's first days alone at Michael's apartment, the day seemed to stretch before her. She had to learn how to just sit with herself and watch TV, or to finally experience some real emotion. At work, she felt more productive, but dreaded going home because she was faced with hours of solitude that had previously been dedicated to drinking. Sometimes she would want a glass of wine so badly she could taste it on her lips. The desire to drink, to numb the fear and pain and anxiety was so great she thought she would crack.