How would Knapp fill her days when she was living by herself?

Knapp would shut herself up in her apartment and drink and sink deeper into depression. She would make lists of things to do: take writing workshops, makes contacts, call Brown Career Services. Each day she would face endless hours of nothing to do. To cope with being alone with her thoughts she would sit and drink alone. That first year was very depressing for Knapp. She could not find a job, she was fragile, angry and sad at feeling unsafe. Without liquor she did not know what to do with herself. To escape from her apartment, Knapp would go to the pizza parlor across the street and order a pizza so that she could sit at the bar and drink more.