How does the writer feel about Camelia at this point?

The unidentified writer is angry at Camelia, feeling she has betrayed him. The writer explains that he pretended the pajama pants were Camelia, and he was poised above her with the knife. He says he was startled by his behavior, but then realized that the message on the mirror and the shredded pants were everything Camelia wants, but that she doesn't know what's good for her the way he does.